What I Am

Synopsis: A woman suffers amnesia after an accident at home, embarking on a journey of self-discovery that leads to the reclamation of her agency.

Director Statement:

Women absorb messages throughout their lives – telling them what they are or aren't entitled to, what they should look like, where their place is in a patriarchal society… to name just a few. This restricts who they might be. But add a socioeconomic disadvantaged background to this and the implications are even greater. I wanted to take such a woman and remove her memory to see what that could look like - a woman unencumbered, free to fulfill her potential and be who she was always meant to be.

The film straddles two worlds – one of opportunity, culture and privilege, and that of the socioeconomic disadvantaged. I wanted a striking visual contrast between these worlds to lay bare the inequalities: shooting widescreen, in a large, beautiful, Georgian house filled with natural light, for the former, and a small council house with cramped spaces, lit only by sodium street light and shrinking the screen down to 4:3 for the latter. I drew inspiration from filmmakers like Wong Kar Wai, Terence Davies and Michelangelo Antonioni for their poetic visual style, use of poetry, art and music, to create a contemplative atmosphere and tone that expresses the emotional state of the central character.

Director’s Biography - Jackie Oudney

Oudney, whose micro-budget feature, ‘French Film’ picked up two awards at the Monte-Carlo Film Festival, honed her skills as a commercials director. Her two shorts, ‘Station’ & ‘Vagabond Shoes’ won a clutch of awards, including Koda / BAFTA Showcase and BAFTA nominations.